I need serious focus in my life today.

Like. Blinders.

I might just get horse blinders. I feel like they would help. They could keep me focused on exactly what I need to get done today. Which, isn't all that much, really.... And it's Friday, and Friday's tasks always feel like they can flow into the rest of the weekend, right? Like, I actually have three days to do everything, there is no exact deadline today.

Actually, I can't live today like that.

I have got to focus.

This is how much I need focus. I was just momentarily interrupted, by what else, the kidlets, and instead of just walking away from my computer in anticipation of returning shortly... I shut the whole thing down.

Why would I do that??

I have even had two cups of coffee today.

Oh. My.

Anyways, I have got to pick up the house. And here's the thing, I cleaned the WHOLE thing on Wednesday. I mean, we are talking spic and span, sparkling like in Disney cartoons, squeaky clean.

And now it's a mess.

Part of the reason is because last night I got to go to a jewelry party with my dearest M. (Oh, have I told you my new thing is all first initials?? Because it is. But also, that is from a movie... and I cannot think of right it now because my brain is not working.... but it for sure is. Or a TV show. Or a book. Or.... maybe a dream... I really can't remember.)

Anyways, it was a perfect girl's night. Jewelry. Cream Puffs. Homemade Artichoke Dip. Wine. Lots of Laughing. Wine. Oh, and. Wine.

I mean, what else is there in life???

But. I was gone the whole night, and missed bedtime for two out of the three, and Zach was in charge, so I came home to disaster.

Not that it's his fault. I mean, is there a wife in the world that can leave her husband in charge for the night and come home to the same order that is normally present when she is there after dinner?

Seriously, is there a wife? Does she exist? And can I get her phone number so I can figure out what she is doing that I am not????

Just kidding!

He does fine. I mean, he did get them fed, settled down and to bed, right?

Ok, so after the picking up of the house, which will inevitably take me much longer than I estimate, and feel like I'm cleaning from top to bottom all over again... All that's left on the To Do List is to write.

Yeah, right. All that's left.....

Do you realize that Tomorrow is October??? TOMORROW.

Um, I have a book due out in... OCTOBER.

Sorry, I don't mean to shout at you.

Someone messaged me and they were like, I hope the book comes out October First. And I'm like... I hope so too... Cough. Cough.

I mean, there is no way. Right now, I'm shooting for the middle of the month, just because the book, well, it might not be exactly.... it's not completely.... It's not finished yet.

There. I said it. I have to come to terms with it too!

But don't worry. I'll get there. Ahem.... I will get there.

And then the editors. And the covers not finished yet. And then I'll have to spend at least 24 hours completely freaking out about releasing another book, and hoping it's well received and getting so nervous I vomit and this time I want a bottle of champagne after it goes Live. Not to celebrate with. Oh. No. I need it to settle me down!

So let's everyone, let's just burn a candle for the middle of October! :)

Tonight, we had planned to take the children camping. But I don't think it's going to happen anymore, because I swear, mother's intuition and all, that we are days from the entire family getting sick. I can just see it on the kid's faces and the fact that they will just randomly lay down on the floor (Except for Scarlett, somebody for sure slipped her crazy pills today. She has broken a picture frame, dumped every single puzzle we own on the ground and I have had to repeat, "Scarlett! DO NOT even think about biting your brother's head!!!! at least a thousand times this morning).

But Zach is worried we might all turn into Popsicles. Especially the babes.

Although, that is much less work for me, so he will find no objection here...

The girl's on the other hand...

At least I'll have time to write. Fifa 12 could not have come out at a better time for my marriage!